As I type this, I have only a couple hours left in my 34th year of life. I am sentimental by nature and spent my evening reminiscing on a year coming to an end. It helped me remember my accomplishments and struggles over these past twelve months, which can so easily get overlooked or forgotten in moving forward each day.
I was actually amazed at what my year entailed. I lived it and still was amazed when looking back at what could happen to a person in one year. To say it was eventful is one hell of an understatement.
I started off my year escaping harm from a freak bear attack on a funny camping trip. Lived wonderful memories of camping, concerts, parties, baseball & football games and countless hours of laughter with my friends. And had one of the biggest scares of my life, possible breast cancer, which thank god turned out to be negative.
I left a job I had happily worked at for ten years, to start an exciting new direction in my career. Unexpectedly ended my employment with the new company. Then took a chance and started a successful business working for myself.
I finally made substantial progress with my physical therapy after going several times every week over the past three years. My beloved Bears made it to the Super Bowl and beyond my greatest expectations, actually attended the game. And finally was blessed with an amazing romance, even as short lived as it was.
As humble as I am, even I was impressed. I was impressed by how incredible my family and friends are and how their support got me through some very dark hours. I can’t thank them enough. I was impressed with the chances I was brave enough to take. The risks were worth it. And mostly I was impressed with my strength. I was able to find strength even in my weakest moments. Thank God for that.
Besides having such an eventful year, my friends would also say that I have changed a lot. I was finally able to move on and let go of a lot of pain, sadness and guilt. I finally found some direction, wrestled my demons and really found peace in myself. And most recently over the last three months, have become the woman I always felt that I could be. Thank me for that.
I have no idea what this next year will hold. But I look forward to it. I hope it will bring me closer to a few things that I would love to have in my life. I hope to have another year filled with wonderful memories. And I hope I am able to give back to those that have given me so much. Although that, would really take a lifetime to do.
Until next time.
Christy
Currently listening : One Cell In the Sea By A Fine Frenzy Release date: 17 July, 2007
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Both Sides Now
Maybe it is an approaching birthday, or maybe just the season I am in, but lately I have thought a lot about how there are two sides in living life. From the journey that I have chosen so far, without giving judgment, I have seen life from both sides. Joni Mitchell does a great job expressing this way of looking at life in her song Both Sides Now. Here are the lyrics.
Rows and floes of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons everywhere
I've looked at clouds that way
But now they only block the sun
They rain and snow on everyone
So many things I would have done
But clouds got in my way
I've looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It's cloud illusions I recall
I really don't know clouds at all
Moons and Junes and Ferris wheels
The dizzy dancing way you feel
As every fairy tale comes real
I've looked at love that way
But now it's just another show
You leave 'em laughing when you go
And if you care, don't let them know
Don't give yourself away
I've looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
It's love's illusions I recall
I really don't know love at all
Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say "I love you" right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I've looked at life that way
But now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads, they say I've changed
Well something's lost, but something's gained
In living every day
I've looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all
I've looked at life from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all
Some describe it as a loss of innocence after living with the realities of life. I think it is more of a realization that to be happy or successful in life you have to keep an open mind. What you thought you needed today after you received it, might end up making you unhappy tomorrow. Or you might think you have all the answers and know what to do but after it is done, it doesn’t go anyway like you planned and leaves you with more questions.
Even after all that I have lived in my life; I still don’t know life at all. There is always two ways of looking at something. I have always chosen to look at life with optimism. Some would say to a fault and maybe at times they have been right. But it has brought me real happiness and the ability to give encouragement to others.
But I am not naïve and have lived enough of life to know that you can’t live it with rose colored glasses. I had to feel pain to feel joy. I had to feel loss to truly appreciate what I had. I needed to have heartbreak to know how to love and be loved. And I needed to be the one that left, as well as the one that was left behind, to know how to take care of hearts.
I have changed from the lessons I have learned in my life. I am sure I have much change ahead of me as well, as I continue to learn and try my best to figure out life. And I now appreciate the meaning so much more that something is lost but something is gained in living life every day.
Until next time.
Christy
Currently listening : Both Sides Now By Joni Mitchell Release date: 21 March, 2000
Rows and floes of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons everywhere
I've looked at clouds that way
But now they only block the sun
They rain and snow on everyone
So many things I would have done
But clouds got in my way
I've looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It's cloud illusions I recall
I really don't know clouds at all
Moons and Junes and Ferris wheels
The dizzy dancing way you feel
As every fairy tale comes real
I've looked at love that way
But now it's just another show
You leave 'em laughing when you go
And if you care, don't let them know
Don't give yourself away
I've looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
It's love's illusions I recall
I really don't know love at all
Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say "I love you" right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I've looked at life that way
But now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads, they say I've changed
Well something's lost, but something's gained
In living every day
I've looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all
I've looked at life from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all
Some describe it as a loss of innocence after living with the realities of life. I think it is more of a realization that to be happy or successful in life you have to keep an open mind. What you thought you needed today after you received it, might end up making you unhappy tomorrow. Or you might think you have all the answers and know what to do but after it is done, it doesn’t go anyway like you planned and leaves you with more questions.
Even after all that I have lived in my life; I still don’t know life at all. There is always two ways of looking at something. I have always chosen to look at life with optimism. Some would say to a fault and maybe at times they have been right. But it has brought me real happiness and the ability to give encouragement to others.
But I am not naïve and have lived enough of life to know that you can’t live it with rose colored glasses. I had to feel pain to feel joy. I had to feel loss to truly appreciate what I had. I needed to have heartbreak to know how to love and be loved. And I needed to be the one that left, as well as the one that was left behind, to know how to take care of hearts.
I have changed from the lessons I have learned in my life. I am sure I have much change ahead of me as well, as I continue to learn and try my best to figure out life. And I now appreciate the meaning so much more that something is lost but something is gained in living life every day.
Until next time.
Christy
Currently listening : Both Sides Now By Joni Mitchell Release date: 21 March, 2000
Monday, July 23, 2007
Fiction Plane
A group I urge you to check out is Fiction Plane. They opened for The Police (one hell of a concert!) and to be honest with you I wasn’t that impressed watching them live. Besides having a very cool name, they were intense and edgy which I liked but not much of a stage presence yet. To their defense, they were opening for The Police in a stadium full of fans counting the seconds until a band they never thought would play live again came on stage.
But a good friend of mine encouraged me to listen to their album and that I would love it. They were right! The band has a very cool vibe. The music is methodical and intense. The lyrics are raw, abrasive and dysfunctional at times, but aren’t we all.
If you really listen to the lead singer’s voice you might recognize something familiar in it. Joe Sumner is Sting’s son. Makes sense now how they got the gig! But after listening to their album I would have signed them too.
Sometimes you have to give things a second chance. I notice that with music all the time. The first time I hear a song that really didn’t jump out at me, I might question if I like it or what I don’t like about it. But the more I listen to it and break down the lyrics, I begin to see other things or feel other emotions from it.
I love when you hear a line in a song and think…dam that is good. Pure genius in 4 to 6 seconds. Picking the right words, in the right order, to give the feel and intent you wish the song to project to your audience is one hell of an art form and I am a big fan of it.
The music has to be able to create emotion in the listener as well. At least it does for me. I love when a melody in a song can make you stop what you are doing and just smile. Or gets you so excited your heart jumps from excitement. And when it can even bring you to the brink of tears. It is a high.
There are several great songs on the album to appreciate. The most popular and one you might have heard on the radio is Two Sisters. Give Left Side of the Brain, Cold Water Symmetry, It’s a Lie and Cross the Line a try. I think you will be happy you did.
Until next time.
Christy
Currently listening : Left Side of the Brain By Fiction Plane Release date: 22 May, 2007
But a good friend of mine encouraged me to listen to their album and that I would love it. They were right! The band has a very cool vibe. The music is methodical and intense. The lyrics are raw, abrasive and dysfunctional at times, but aren’t we all.
If you really listen to the lead singer’s voice you might recognize something familiar in it. Joe Sumner is Sting’s son. Makes sense now how they got the gig! But after listening to their album I would have signed them too.
Sometimes you have to give things a second chance. I notice that with music all the time. The first time I hear a song that really didn’t jump out at me, I might question if I like it or what I don’t like about it. But the more I listen to it and break down the lyrics, I begin to see other things or feel other emotions from it.
I love when you hear a line in a song and think…dam that is good. Pure genius in 4 to 6 seconds. Picking the right words, in the right order, to give the feel and intent you wish the song to project to your audience is one hell of an art form and I am a big fan of it.
The music has to be able to create emotion in the listener as well. At least it does for me. I love when a melody in a song can make you stop what you are doing and just smile. Or gets you so excited your heart jumps from excitement. And when it can even bring you to the brink of tears. It is a high.
There are several great songs on the album to appreciate. The most popular and one you might have heard on the radio is Two Sisters. Give Left Side of the Brain, Cold Water Symmetry, It’s a Lie and Cross the Line a try. I think you will be happy you did.
Until next time.
Christy
Currently listening : Left Side of the Brain By Fiction Plane Release date: 22 May, 2007
Sunday, July 22, 2007
What are you afraid of?
Ever been so happy that you actually become scared because of it? It sounds crazy I know. But I have a friend that has happened to recently. To be really honest, I have several friends that has happened to and often. They have been so hurt in their past that I think they fear happiness and many of them then conduct missions of self-sabotage, mindful or not. That makes me sad as I only want the best for my friends and they deserve so much more then they are allowing themselves to have.
But fear is a powerful thing in our lives. Fear can make us walk away without trying. If we try, we can fail. Fear can make us walk away from someone we are dating that makes us smile, lightens our heart and leaves us speechless. If we leave first, they won’t discover how messed up we are, still trying to figure out who the hell we are. And if we walk away before we start caring for them, we can’t loose them.
Fear is the greatest robber of all time; our time. The ironic thing about fear is when you give into it you give away your right to live life on your terms. I am no hypocrite. I am just as scared as anyone and have put up my fair share of facades to pretend otherwise throughout the years.
What costs have we lost in our lives to fear? Think of what might have been different in our lives if we would have made other choices?
Why not try? If you haven’t tried, you haven’t lived. And why not admit first to yourself that you do really want to need that special person in your life again? Although you have been hurt and let down so many times you are too tired for hope, this just might be the person that can care for you the way you should have always been cared for.
What if we were all brave enough to take on our fears and control what direction our lives take us? What if we took the time to ask the right questions and define what our fears are and then find peace in knowing what those are? I wish this for my friends. I want to see them ache of happiness. I want to see them live life on their terms. I want them to look back on their life and know that it is a life they defined, not fear.
Until next time.
Christy
Currently listening : Get Lifted By John Legend Release date: 28 December, 2004
But fear is a powerful thing in our lives. Fear can make us walk away without trying. If we try, we can fail. Fear can make us walk away from someone we are dating that makes us smile, lightens our heart and leaves us speechless. If we leave first, they won’t discover how messed up we are, still trying to figure out who the hell we are. And if we walk away before we start caring for them, we can’t loose them.
Fear is the greatest robber of all time; our time. The ironic thing about fear is when you give into it you give away your right to live life on your terms. I am no hypocrite. I am just as scared as anyone and have put up my fair share of facades to pretend otherwise throughout the years.
What costs have we lost in our lives to fear? Think of what might have been different in our lives if we would have made other choices?
Why not try? If you haven’t tried, you haven’t lived. And why not admit first to yourself that you do really want to need that special person in your life again? Although you have been hurt and let down so many times you are too tired for hope, this just might be the person that can care for you the way you should have always been cared for.
What if we were all brave enough to take on our fears and control what direction our lives take us? What if we took the time to ask the right questions and define what our fears are and then find peace in knowing what those are? I wish this for my friends. I want to see them ache of happiness. I want to see them live life on their terms. I want them to look back on their life and know that it is a life they defined, not fear.
Until next time.
Christy
Currently listening : Get Lifted By John Legend Release date: 28 December, 2004
Saturday, July 21, 2007
Do you really know them?
Today is my grandmother’s birthday. Happy birthday grandma! I love you. As another year passes I have mixed emotions and am sad when asking myself the question, do I really know her? I know that may sound weird to ask of a family member but do I really know her? I know her as my wonderful and loving grandmother but she has been so much more in life then that.
What I do know about her is she is originally from England, met my grandfather in the war, fell in love and moved over to the United States. She left her family and all of her friends to start a new life in America with my grandfather. I will never know what that felt like for her. I can only imagine what that would be like. Terrifying and exciting all at the same time.
I also don’t know what she was like as a young woman. Not what she did to spend her time but more about what made her happy, what made her laugh and even cry. I don’t know what it was like for her as a mother, raising four daughters in a foreign country without her family for support in a time you couldn’t just pick up the phone or email them when you really wanted or needed their advice.
I began to realize that I don’t know my grandmother, well as least like I would like to. I have never had a chance to sit down and have a conversation with her, woman to woman. I am sure that we have similar emotions, habits, fears, likes and dislikes in life but I don’t really know what those are. I am a legacy of a woman that I really don’t know as I should.
I regret that and thankfully still have time to correct that. We all are here for such a very short time in this world. And so easily we forget to really know the people in our lives. I mean really know them. Not how their day was or how the job is going, etc… I mean really get to know them and have a deep conversation with them.
Conversations about life issues and about what their biggest triumphs and fears are. What choices in life they are proud of and which ones they realized were mistakes they had to learn from. What they would have done different if given that second chance and what they would love to pass on to us as wisdom.
These are things that I would like to know about my grandmother and hope to be able to share with my children if I ever have them some day. Because my memories of her will probably be the only way my children will get to know her. And I would want them to know everything about this amazing woman, who took so much risk in life so that someday her great grandchildren could be here. Thank you grandma, thank you very much.
Until next time.
Christy
Currently listening : Classic Sinatra By Frank Sinatra Release date: 28 March, 2000
What I do know about her is she is originally from England, met my grandfather in the war, fell in love and moved over to the United States. She left her family and all of her friends to start a new life in America with my grandfather. I will never know what that felt like for her. I can only imagine what that would be like. Terrifying and exciting all at the same time.
I also don’t know what she was like as a young woman. Not what she did to spend her time but more about what made her happy, what made her laugh and even cry. I don’t know what it was like for her as a mother, raising four daughters in a foreign country without her family for support in a time you couldn’t just pick up the phone or email them when you really wanted or needed their advice.
I began to realize that I don’t know my grandmother, well as least like I would like to. I have never had a chance to sit down and have a conversation with her, woman to woman. I am sure that we have similar emotions, habits, fears, likes and dislikes in life but I don’t really know what those are. I am a legacy of a woman that I really don’t know as I should.
I regret that and thankfully still have time to correct that. We all are here for such a very short time in this world. And so easily we forget to really know the people in our lives. I mean really know them. Not how their day was or how the job is going, etc… I mean really get to know them and have a deep conversation with them.
Conversations about life issues and about what their biggest triumphs and fears are. What choices in life they are proud of and which ones they realized were mistakes they had to learn from. What they would have done different if given that second chance and what they would love to pass on to us as wisdom.
These are things that I would like to know about my grandmother and hope to be able to share with my children if I ever have them some day. Because my memories of her will probably be the only way my children will get to know her. And I would want them to know everything about this amazing woman, who took so much risk in life so that someday her great grandchildren could be here. Thank you grandma, thank you very much.
Until next time.
Christy
Currently listening : Classic Sinatra By Frank Sinatra Release date: 28 March, 2000
Thursday, July 19, 2007
Once
I want to encourage you to go see the movie Once. It is one of the best music films I have seen and just a really good movie. The movie is set on the streets of Dublin and tells the story of a street musician and a Czech immigrant during an eventful week as they write, rehearse and record songs that reveal their unique love story.
I will admit (and most women will too) be drawn to the film from its tagline “How often do you find the right person?” Clever marketing bastards. And although it is a love story, I enjoyed it more because it is a real one. Not a Hollywood version they feed us, but one that is more realistic pointing out the challenges of love. If anyone ever tries to tell you love is easy they are trying to fool you just like they are fooling themselves. Like anything that is worth it in life, love takes time and care and struggles as well as joys to nurture it and let it grow.
The film has a thought provoking ending. I won’t ruin it by telling you about it but will say deciding if it is a happy ending or not is all in the way you choose to look at it. I have an opinion on it that I am happy to share to anyone interested, just ask.
What else I really loved about it was seeing a film that shows you the creative process of making music. It tells the story of the struggles and joys of having music that is so personal to the songwriter and then finding a way to have it shared to the masses. A highlight of the film is seeing the intensity and emotion that Glen Hansard has when singing his songs. It is exhilarating and heart wrenching at the same time.
It isn’t being released to all the theaters so you have to search for it. But it is a great movie that deserves to be seen. I hope that you enjoy it too and would love to hear your thoughts on it. The soundtrack is also amazing. Really good soul searching music.
Until next time.
Christy
Currently listening : Once By Original Soundtrack Release date: 22 May, 2007
I will admit (and most women will too) be drawn to the film from its tagline “How often do you find the right person?” Clever marketing bastards. And although it is a love story, I enjoyed it more because it is a real one. Not a Hollywood version they feed us, but one that is more realistic pointing out the challenges of love. If anyone ever tries to tell you love is easy they are trying to fool you just like they are fooling themselves. Like anything that is worth it in life, love takes time and care and struggles as well as joys to nurture it and let it grow.
The film has a thought provoking ending. I won’t ruin it by telling you about it but will say deciding if it is a happy ending or not is all in the way you choose to look at it. I have an opinion on it that I am happy to share to anyone interested, just ask.
What else I really loved about it was seeing a film that shows you the creative process of making music. It tells the story of the struggles and joys of having music that is so personal to the songwriter and then finding a way to have it shared to the masses. A highlight of the film is seeing the intensity and emotion that Glen Hansard has when singing his songs. It is exhilarating and heart wrenching at the same time.
It isn’t being released to all the theaters so you have to search for it. But it is a great movie that deserves to be seen. I hope that you enjoy it too and would love to hear your thoughts on it. The soundtrack is also amazing. Really good soul searching music.
Until next time.
Christy
Currently listening : Once By Original Soundtrack Release date: 22 May, 2007
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
Questions
Well I did it. I had that difficult conversation. And in the end I realize I did it for myself. The right reason for sure. I hope it meant something to the other person too but only he knows that. I also realized that communication is so helpful for your soul. It is so powerful. It really helps you put things at peace. I am thankful I was brave enough to reach out for it.
I discovered that someone wasn’t who I thought he was. But to his credit, it was mostly because I didn’t really know him yet. I had presumed I did from a handful of intense and emotional experiences. That wasn’t fair to either of us. Truth is, I haven’t had enough time to know him yet and to some degree don’t we truly only know what they let us know about themselves?
I was open, real and beyond the bullshit. That is just me. People have a hard time believing that at first when the meet me. I guess it isn’t very common. But once they realize it is true I always get that look from them. The one when they realize I am not playing games. Some look at that with respect and others they look at it as being foolish. I look at it as respecting the other person by not feeding them bullshit. Isn’t it more foolish to think someone likes the taste of bullshit?
Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me. I have been the fool. A fool for the idea of love. I have a history of making decisions very quickly about men. I know that about myself now. I fall quickly and without measuring risk. But I have felt amazing emotions for men from that. And realize now too that is hasn’t all been love, most of it lust and that’s ok too.
At the time I thought it was love but realize now I wanted it to be. But you can’t make believe love. Foolishly we raise our children with tales of glass slippers, Price Charming and waiting in towers for our one true love. How foolish to feed our closest loved ones such unrealistic views on what love is. Isn’t love the husband that works his ass off everyday, day after day, to provide for his wife or family? Isn’t love the wife that is so tired from getting up early, getting the kids ready for school, working herself for 9 hours but still wants to have a wonderful dinner ready to share with her husband? And isn’t love that great guy she is dating that found out what her favorite flower was and bought her one, only one because that is all he could afford? Now those would be stories that I would want to be told at bed before drifting off to dream as a child.
I am the first to tell you I don’t know what love is yet and through maturity have realized enough to know it means something different to each person. Maybe that is what makes it so special and yet so complicated. Maybe the really happy people ask the right questions in life, even the hard ones to face. To really make sure that they know themselves first and then are brave enough to not judge themselves when discovering the answers what ever they may be. Imagine what would happen if more people did that? What kind of world would we live in, if we did just that?
Until next time.
Christy
Currently listening : Hatful of Rain: The Best of Del Amitri By Del Amitri Release date: 14 September, 1998
I discovered that someone wasn’t who I thought he was. But to his credit, it was mostly because I didn’t really know him yet. I had presumed I did from a handful of intense and emotional experiences. That wasn’t fair to either of us. Truth is, I haven’t had enough time to know him yet and to some degree don’t we truly only know what they let us know about themselves?
I was open, real and beyond the bullshit. That is just me. People have a hard time believing that at first when the meet me. I guess it isn’t very common. But once they realize it is true I always get that look from them. The one when they realize I am not playing games. Some look at that with respect and others they look at it as being foolish. I look at it as respecting the other person by not feeding them bullshit. Isn’t it more foolish to think someone likes the taste of bullshit?
Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me. I have been the fool. A fool for the idea of love. I have a history of making decisions very quickly about men. I know that about myself now. I fall quickly and without measuring risk. But I have felt amazing emotions for men from that. And realize now too that is hasn’t all been love, most of it lust and that’s ok too.
At the time I thought it was love but realize now I wanted it to be. But you can’t make believe love. Foolishly we raise our children with tales of glass slippers, Price Charming and waiting in towers for our one true love. How foolish to feed our closest loved ones such unrealistic views on what love is. Isn’t love the husband that works his ass off everyday, day after day, to provide for his wife or family? Isn’t love the wife that is so tired from getting up early, getting the kids ready for school, working herself for 9 hours but still wants to have a wonderful dinner ready to share with her husband? And isn’t love that great guy she is dating that found out what her favorite flower was and bought her one, only one because that is all he could afford? Now those would be stories that I would want to be told at bed before drifting off to dream as a child.
I am the first to tell you I don’t know what love is yet and through maturity have realized enough to know it means something different to each person. Maybe that is what makes it so special and yet so complicated. Maybe the really happy people ask the right questions in life, even the hard ones to face. To really make sure that they know themselves first and then are brave enough to not judge themselves when discovering the answers what ever they may be. Imagine what would happen if more people did that? What kind of world would we live in, if we did just that?
Until next time.
Christy
Currently listening : Hatful of Rain: The Best of Del Amitri By Del Amitri Release date: 14 September, 1998
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Hunger
Ever get hungry? I don’t mean feeling something that can be subsided by the simple pleasure of food. I mean a deep down aching need for something? And it takes over and you just feel…hungry. Hungry for conversation or human contact or laughter or anger or whatever…you soul is screaming at you that it needs something and demands to be taken seriously. That kind of hunger.
I woke up today feeling that. And yet can’t determine the exact need. That is the harder part. But lately as days go by I know that something is missing from my amazingly blessed world and can feel “it” moving farther and farther away unless I take action for “it”. So your soul gets restless and tries to get you off your analytical ass to actual act or fight for “it”. Bravo! Your heart says.
Stop worrying what is the right thing to do for once and just do it (sorry Nike!). How many of us spend our time thinking and worrying about what we should do when we feel something? But how many of us actually do something about those feelings? When is the last time you remember being crazy and just acting on your gut feeling? Or being spontaneous for that matter? When is the last time you surprised someone or yourself for that matter? Yes you will be fine doing nothing and going about your day. But what if fine isn’t good enough? It isn’t for this redhead.
How many times have you not had a difficult conversation with someone because you just were scared of the consequences? Have you ever pushed yourself out of your comfort zone and reminded you that life is too short not to have those difficult conversations. You only get one shot at life. Once today is over, it is over. What if you don’t get a tomorrow? Don’t you owe it to that person or yourself to have that conversation? I am a big hater in life of things left unsaid. Why let yourself have regrets? If that person is worth it at all like you obviously think they are (friend, colleague, lover, parent), they will be grateful and maybe relieved that you took that first step.
Have to go out the door now to do something crazy to feed my hunger.
Until next time.
Christy
Currently listening : How To Save A Life By The Fray Release date: 13 September, 2005
I woke up today feeling that. And yet can’t determine the exact need. That is the harder part. But lately as days go by I know that something is missing from my amazingly blessed world and can feel “it” moving farther and farther away unless I take action for “it”. So your soul gets restless and tries to get you off your analytical ass to actual act or fight for “it”. Bravo! Your heart says.
Stop worrying what is the right thing to do for once and just do it (sorry Nike!). How many of us spend our time thinking and worrying about what we should do when we feel something? But how many of us actually do something about those feelings? When is the last time you remember being crazy and just acting on your gut feeling? Or being spontaneous for that matter? When is the last time you surprised someone or yourself for that matter? Yes you will be fine doing nothing and going about your day. But what if fine isn’t good enough? It isn’t for this redhead.
How many times have you not had a difficult conversation with someone because you just were scared of the consequences? Have you ever pushed yourself out of your comfort zone and reminded you that life is too short not to have those difficult conversations. You only get one shot at life. Once today is over, it is over. What if you don’t get a tomorrow? Don’t you owe it to that person or yourself to have that conversation? I am a big hater in life of things left unsaid. Why let yourself have regrets? If that person is worth it at all like you obviously think they are (friend, colleague, lover, parent), they will be grateful and maybe relieved that you took that first step.
Have to go out the door now to do something crazy to feed my hunger.
Until next time.
Christy
Currently listening : How To Save A Life By The Fray Release date: 13 September, 2005
Monday, July 16, 2007
Have to start somewhere...
In the spirit of writing more and since you have to start somewhere…here I go. I wanted to start a blog because one, besides just respecting writing as an art form in general, I really respect my friends that do one. They really put themselves out there and express what is being felt in their world. Love that shit. Second, I always turn to writing in my life because sometimes I feel like if I don’t let these emotions out some how they will begin to start busting at the seams (and that is never a good thing in a women’s world…figuratively or metaphorically!). So in the spirit of sharing I too wanted to just start putting myself out there and if I can give some insight or ever inspire anyone…well then that is something.
One place I get my inspiration from is music. If you know me, that really is an understatement! Music is one thing I am very passionate about in life. It evokes moods, expresses things that others have a hard time putting into words and can make that perfect moment even better. At least for me it does. And I can’t tell you how many times the perfect album has come into my life at the “season” it was meant to be in.
I also love to share great music with those that love it as much as I do. From time to time I will do my best to recommend songs, artists and albums that have touched me. I hope they will mean something to you too and would love for you to share with me what that is defined as by you.
My latest find is Sara Bareilles with her first album, Little Voice. She has an amazing voice but the best part of her music by far is her lyrics. As I said, some songs speak to you. Many of hers do to me. I have shared similar feelings and felt as if I could have written some of them myself. Her writing is brilliant and stands out by being able to say things in a fresh and unique way.
I love and relate to what she wrote in her website bio:
“It’s a collection of songs that pretty much mean the world to me. They chronicle my life, my relationships, my basket-case-ness, and my utter devotion to trying to write honest stuff down and share it. That’s where the title comes from. This record was really about me learning to trust my own instincts, and more importantly, recognize how desperately I needed to learn to listen to myself, however inexperienced and naïve I may be. It sounds cliché, but that little voice is sometimes the only voice that’s speaking the truth. I think that’s pretty fucking cool.”
I agree. What amazing gift she gave herself and the world by creating this album. For me, I love knowing that someone else out there has felt what I have. The song One Sweet Love, well let’s just say it could be my theme song.
I can only say that now after all that I have discovered about myself this year. Self discovery is the season I currently am in. The song is about a quest for that one sweet love. I have been on that quest for a very long time. And now, for the first time I am in a great place to really find it. It takes really getting to know yourself before you can trust yourself.
All the songs are really amazing; Love Song, Gravity and Love on the Rocks really stand out! Another that hits me personally is Between the Lines…but that is another story to tell another time.
Until next time,
Christy
Currently listening : Little Voice By Sara Bareilles Release date: 03 July, 2007
One place I get my inspiration from is music. If you know me, that really is an understatement! Music is one thing I am very passionate about in life. It evokes moods, expresses things that others have a hard time putting into words and can make that perfect moment even better. At least for me it does. And I can’t tell you how many times the perfect album has come into my life at the “season” it was meant to be in.
I also love to share great music with those that love it as much as I do. From time to time I will do my best to recommend songs, artists and albums that have touched me. I hope they will mean something to you too and would love for you to share with me what that is defined as by you.
My latest find is Sara Bareilles with her first album, Little Voice. She has an amazing voice but the best part of her music by far is her lyrics. As I said, some songs speak to you. Many of hers do to me. I have shared similar feelings and felt as if I could have written some of them myself. Her writing is brilliant and stands out by being able to say things in a fresh and unique way.
I love and relate to what she wrote in her website bio:
“It’s a collection of songs that pretty much mean the world to me. They chronicle my life, my relationships, my basket-case-ness, and my utter devotion to trying to write honest stuff down and share it. That’s where the title comes from. This record was really about me learning to trust my own instincts, and more importantly, recognize how desperately I needed to learn to listen to myself, however inexperienced and naïve I may be. It sounds cliché, but that little voice is sometimes the only voice that’s speaking the truth. I think that’s pretty fucking cool.”
I agree. What amazing gift she gave herself and the world by creating this album. For me, I love knowing that someone else out there has felt what I have. The song One Sweet Love, well let’s just say it could be my theme song.
I can only say that now after all that I have discovered about myself this year. Self discovery is the season I currently am in. The song is about a quest for that one sweet love. I have been on that quest for a very long time. And now, for the first time I am in a great place to really find it. It takes really getting to know yourself before you can trust yourself.
All the songs are really amazing; Love Song, Gravity and Love on the Rocks really stand out! Another that hits me personally is Between the Lines…but that is another story to tell another time.
Until next time,
Christy
Currently listening : Little Voice By Sara Bareilles Release date: 03 July, 2007
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