Ever been so happy that you actually become scared because of it? It sounds crazy I know. But I have a friend that has happened to recently. To be really honest, I have several friends that has happened to and often. They have been so hurt in their past that I think they fear happiness and many of them then conduct missions of self-sabotage, mindful or not. That makes me sad as I only want the best for my friends and they deserve so much more then they are allowing themselves to have.
But fear is a powerful thing in our lives. Fear can make us walk away without trying. If we try, we can fail. Fear can make us walk away from someone we are dating that makes us smile, lightens our heart and leaves us speechless. If we leave first, they won’t discover how messed up we are, still trying to figure out who the hell we are. And if we walk away before we start caring for them, we can’t loose them.
Fear is the greatest robber of all time; our time. The ironic thing about fear is when you give into it you give away your right to live life on your terms. I am no hypocrite. I am just as scared as anyone and have put up my fair share of facades to pretend otherwise throughout the years.
What costs have we lost in our lives to fear? Think of what might have been different in our lives if we would have made other choices?
Why not try? If you haven’t tried, you haven’t lived. And why not admit first to yourself that you do really want to need that special person in your life again? Although you have been hurt and let down so many times you are too tired for hope, this just might be the person that can care for you the way you should have always been cared for.
What if we were all brave enough to take on our fears and control what direction our lives take us? What if we took the time to ask the right questions and define what our fears are and then find peace in knowing what those are? I wish this for my friends. I want to see them ache of happiness. I want to see them live life on their terms. I want them to look back on their life and know that it is a life they defined, not fear.
Until next time.
Christy
Currently listening : Get Lifted By John Legend Release date: 28 December, 2004
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