Ever look at yourself in the mirror and see a different person? I do. I have changed. And sometimes the hardest part about change isn’t necessarily seeing it in yourself but having others around you accept it.
And of course it would be. Who you were is the only way they know you. They have learned to expect you to be a certain way from all the time that you were, to them.
But hopefully in time people will begin to notice what you can no longer ignore. Change has sprouted from self growth, time spent and lessons learned and even from pain felt. And you as well as them better take the time to get acquainted with the new you.
You feel the “new coat of paint” and you begin to finally wipe the fog from your eyes and see yourself as you now are. Those that support this new you will remain in your life. Those that can’t or may have been there for only a season or reason, begin to fade into memories and past pretty pictures.
It is hard but harder to hold on to things that are just not meant to be or that might hold you back from the path you now have to take. I have found that the universe has a way of bringing you what you need when you define what those needs are to yourself. The times in life when we have lacked self definition are usually the times we found ourselves on lost paths or taking wrong directions.
As the summer will soon turn to fall, I want to become an author defining this new person to everyone I know. I want to use what these past seasons have revealed to me within the framework of this soul. And I am excited. I feel like an architect given a chance to remodel their favorite building or a songwriter defining the perfect melody for a well written verse.
I want to sort out the new “gotta haves” and “would be nice” mixed in with the “be sure to do” and “don’t forget to make time for this” list. Search for new mind acquisitions and heart mergers. And from that point I can build a new life around the redevelopment I now am.
Until next time.
Christy
Currently listening : Say I Am You By The Weepies Release date: 07 March, 2006
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