It is very few times that a song hits me so hard that I find a smile on my face as if I have already lived it. That bitter sweet reality and empathy that feels like past lives lived. This is one that even if I would have never heard it, I would have known it.
Reason Why
I think about how it might have been
We now spend our days traveling
It's not that I don't understand you
It's not that I don't want to be with you
But you only wanted me
The way you wanted me
So, I will head out alone and hope for the best
And we can hang out heads down
As we skip the goodbyes
And you can tell the world what you want them to hear
I've got nothing left to lose, my dear
So, I'm up for the little white lies
But you and I…know the reason why
I'm gone, and you're still there
I'm gone, and you're still there
I'm gone, and you're still there
I'll buy a magazine searching for your face
From coast to coast, or wherever I find my place
I'll track you on the radio, and
I'll sign your list in a different name
But as close as I get to you…
It's not the same
So, I will head out alone and hope for the best
We can pat ourselves on the back
As say that we tried
And if one of us makes it there
We can spill our regrets
And talk about how the love never dies
But you and I know the reason why
I'm gone, and you're still there
I'm gone, and you're still there
I'm gone, and you're still there
So, steal the show, and do your best
To cover the tracks that I have left
I wish you well and hope you find
Whatever you're looking for
…The way I might've changed my mind,
But you only showed my the door
So, I will head out alone and hope for the best
We can pat ourselves on the back
And say that we tried
And if one of us makes it big
We can spill our regrets
And talk about how the love never dies
But you and I…
you and I…
you and I…know the reason why
This is in remembrance of a story that I know…still inside of me that I have yet found the strength to relive or live past. And the irony of it all is that you taught me how to trust myself.
I know that someday it will be the story that is in print and left behind for others to read. But until then, all I know is that I should be beyond this but I am just still “in it” waiting for that new light to shine on the path I will now take.
Christy
