Change can be like a ride on a roller coaster. You have defying gravity highs and lows that make your stomach drop. I have found joy in my new independence followed by the humility of my recent vulnerability.
When you let go of something you knew wasn’t right, you can’t believe the weight it takes off your soul. Your smile feels lighter. You feel the warmth of your joy. And like the thrill of knowing you don’t have all the answers to life.
But it doesn’t come without a cost. Fear has heard I no longer have a roommate and is trying to move in. Hope would step in but seems to be out on vacation. And happiness is right around the corner but is playing hard to get.
My strength has been stripped. My confidence wavered. And my heart needs to rebuild that callus of patience that prevents me from trying to force what should always come naturally.
I need to go shopping and pick up some thick skin, courage and refrain. Pack up my emotions that have been on my sleeve. Muzzle my inner critic. Dust off my intuition and cautious nature and re-read the game book. Because heartache, misery and sadness are not on my to-do list.
Until next time,
Christy
